待重头、涅槃——二十六周岁思绪
如果你今天没有努力，明天就不会成功。
风格
很久没有记录文字，摸起键盘已经不知道该说些什么。我已经忘记了自己曾要做一个诗人，做一个小说作家。翻看回这几年来每一年写的东西，没能让自己读完，太过于悲观，或许是人生中最坎坷曲折的几个年头，但更多的，只是宣泄。就像不知道从什么时候开始，连自己都不愿意看到镜子里的自己，又胖，又黑，这也就罢了，感觉还越来越丑了。
一直在围绕生活、事业、爱情来开展，似乎也是时候换一种风格了。
进展(Progress) - 我达到的程度
在非技术领域涉猎广泛，尤其对经济学、心理学、物联网产业和产品、用户体验等各个方面。
呵呵，像上面这种废话就没什么说的必要了。虽然确实是事实。
现实和理想还是有差距的。去衡量一个人一段时间提升了多少，最好的方法就是去衡量他创造了多说价值，以及给亲友带来多少便利。换言之，我做的很多事情并没有什么价值，并与我设想的相差甚远。总体来说，做的事情大多是很简单的，简单的事情我完成得也算不错。
说来惭愧，每天挣扎在各种简单没有技术含量的事情中，大多做出来的成果也无非就是把一件简单的事情换另一种更简单的方法实现。而我渴望着，更大的困境和挑战。
过程(Process) - 我在做的事情
不用多说也知道，一直是在做一些服务器相关的事情，目前主要是在做 Open API 平台和后台管理系统。关键词： DevOps、全栈、算法、性能、安全、并发、数据处理。
正如我刚说的，实际上做的事情都是在重复一些简单过程。是时候做出一些改变了，尝试一些新事物，和一些新创意。
除了主要工作，排在首位的是学习如何进行团队的协作与管理，这是一个薄弱点。
工作之外的事情，并没有什么好消息。
计划(Program) - 我可能会去尝试
我又不是英雄，拯救世界我做不来。
在路上，做的都是为了先给自己一个更好的世界，给爱的人一个更好的世界，然后，才可能是给这个世界一个更好的世界。
这里有一份代办事项清单（未来的一年内）：
- 读一些书。其实今年已经又买了很多，但因为很忙还没读完，如一些幽默故事，诗歌，技术等相关的。
- 一场远行。暂定 1000KM 之外。
- 复习英语。落下了很久，已经生疏了。
- 一次升职。然后给自己定更高的目标。
- 改善生活习惯。健康的身体，革命的本钱。
- 一段感情。一起步入爱情的坟墓。
或许并不算一件难事，建立一个家，积攒起匮乏的安全感。当然也不是那么简单的一件事。
结束亦是开始
记忆总是泛着一丝苦味，所以谈起的时候再努力也会显得有些消极，但实际上，面对未来，我是很乐观的人。我喜欢计划，也有明确的方向感。
写到这里的时候我扫视了一遍前文，宠辱不惊的感觉并不喜欢，实际在过去的一年里，喜悲不断。那就少写一点吧，多做一些实事。
不求做伟大的人，却要做大写的人，这就是我。
If you are not getting tired out today, you will not succeed tomorrow.
Style
It has been a very long period before I write something. When I touch the keyboard, my brain goes empty. I can hardly remember I’d like to be a poet, a novelist. Turned back to those words I wrote every birthday, too negative too naive. Perhaps those days could be the worst of all my half life, more behind that are catharses. Just as, I began to hate the guy I see in the mirror, fat, dark, and ugly.
Around with Life, Work and Love things for long, it’s time to have a new style.
Life Love and Work things
The game of life is hard to play. It’s not a easy thing to describe and I choose to leave it unsaid. However to draw a conclusion, there hadn’t been anything important happened during the past year.
Progress - Things I’ve done.
In the Non-Technical field, dabbling in many areas especially the economy, the psychology, the IoT industries and products and user experiences.
What a load of crap. Altough it’s the truth.
The ideal is the ideal and the reality is the reality. The best way to evaluate the improvement of a person in a period of time, is to calculate how much value had he created and how much benefits had he brought to ralated.
In another way, most things I done make no sense. And they are far awawy from I expected. In general, most things done are simple, and simple things go well.
It’s ashamed to say, the progress I’m struggling with usually comes in a easy way and be made to another easier way. What I hope to deal with, is something hard and tough.
Process - Things I’m doing.
No need to say, the work is always around server-side things. Major in Open API Platform and Admin Dashboard Management System. Keywords: DevOps, Full Stack, Algorithm, Performance, Security, Concurrency, Data Analysis.
As I just said, repeating simple things. And it’s time to make some changes, and do something new, something creative.
Except main job, lerning team cooperation and management is the top thing, ‘coz it’s a weakness of mine.
When not on the job, there is barely good news.
Program - Things I’ll do.
I’m not a hero, I can’t save the world. On the road making a better world for myself, my beloved and then perhaps the whole world.
There is a list doing and todo for the following year.
- Read several books, such as humor stories, poems, technical and so on.
- Go on a trip, distance over 1000km.
- Review English.
- Enhance the job position.
- Improve living habits.
- Start a relationship.
Maybe it’s not a hard thing, to build a home up I need, to gain the the security sense I lost. However it’s not so easy.
Start Over
Memories are always a bit of bitter. When it comes to the begones, it seems some negative but in fact I’m affirmative. I like plans and I have a clear sense of direction. Write less, do more.
To be Willin, is to be willing.
待重头、涅槃——二十六周岁思绪
